* Dracoola Life *

recap

2011-07-23T13:34:00.001+08:00

lets recap wht i am today compared to what i wrote earlier in my blog ... hmmmm ... i'm an engineer, soon to be husband, chairman of my amatuer football club, forex trader and soon to be trainer, online shop owner, business partner for 2 other business and still amatuer football player.... may be given another managerial role for another football club ... hmmmm looks like thats about it ... busy busy i dunno how i manage to find time for all of this ... just realise i deleted some of my very early entries ... how i wish i had not done that ... i guess i must have not wanted those memories ... but curious me wants to know what was it hahahh ...

football fever

2011-07-23T13:24:00.001+08:00

local rivals are going to lock heads once again ... feeling the passion running through my veins ... can't wait to shout and scream once again wooo hoooo!!!

awww man...

2011-07-02T07:15:00.001+08:00

wake up ... bodyaches all over... am i falling sick? ...

need to finish my report

2011-06-28T06:00:00.001+08:00

need to finish my report ... will be working from home so there will be less distractions

work sch arrgh too busy

2011-06-27T14:55:00.001+08:00

aaaaarrrrrgggh too busy ... why all clash at same time ... aiyo ... after moving up the ranks in my line, i finally reach a level where i got bored of it ... i need to do something else ... challenge differently ... and most importantly make me happy i don't want to something just bcos it pays bills ... i just dun feel the satisfaction ... hmmm suddenly now got career mid life crisis hahaha ... well thats all for now ... later

2011 entry

2011-06-27T01:38:00.001+08:00

hi blogheads , ... its been 1 year since i've wrote something ... so here goes ... i'm currently an engineer in HP singapore but not a perm only an onsite engineer... i've change my black honda fit to a silver mitsubishi lancer but i do miss my fit ... football now i'm the chairman of the club i think... too many role change till i also forgot hihi ... doing my part time degree now .. oh my wedding date is on 29 oct ... :-) ... now time to sleep hihi its very late ...

just updating

2010-08-23T13:05:00.002+08:00

Yay! got Iphone 4 added to my collection of apple products previous was Ipod Shuffle and Iphone 3gs....
Things to do this September...

1) Apply for my part time degree
2) Plan for wedding next year
3) Save more money
4) Plan how to create additional income
5) Get back in shape....

crunch time

2009-09-23T10:52:00.002+08:00

oh no... the dateline getting closer and there is so far not light seen at the end of the tunnel... all efforts seems fruitless... am i missing something? i already did as i was told and still no success .... oh god please help .... only you can lead me to the light ...

A win finally .....

2009-06-15T17:10:00.004+08:00

After a long wait, the we got our 2nd win of the season. It was a successful transition handover to the new man in charge. After last week disaster, i step down from head coach to make way for Fir to take over at helm. I guess i have brought the team as far as i could. Its up to Fir now to bring the team forward. Had my ups and down in during my time. The most memorable was the team was able to beat the current league leader of the premier division. And the lowest point was last week drubbing. With more new players now lining up to play for the team, the future looks a little bit brighter for the club.....

Fishing...

2009-02-24T15:05:00.002+08:00

wow... i never thought fishing can release stress.... recently i've just bought a set of fishing rod for myself... and amazingly my first catch is an octopus??? the following trip i manage to catch 5 fishes but all are from the family of the catfish family (3 usat and 2 sembilang)... can't wait for my next fishing trip... yay!!

Losing Interest

2009-02-18T08:37:00.002+08:00

Lately I am fast losing interest to work at my workplace. It no longer making me happy to work there. My close colleagues are fast diminishing and with the future look so bleak, i can't bring myself to put my best work anymore. Even at the moment there are some new projects coming in, i can foresee that more and more projects are being taken over to the branch in China. Sooner or later there will be no more projects to be handle here. Then what will happen? Close down?... With recently i had my hand in management, i am fast losing the interest in working as an employee. I'm now more interested in working as an employer which means running my own business. FnB would be my choice of business because i just love food :-P ... Another mode of business would be a music studio as i have already experience as a user and it is fun to work with music :-) ... to bad i don't have any paper qualification though... all i have is experience... anyway i have come to a point where i need a change in career... i've already had my hands in engineering .. i would love to persue my other dreams and try my hands at other profession....

Lousy Weekend

2009-02-09T14:09:00.002+08:00

Sigh... my first lost in 2009 and first lost officially as a manager.... after a great start to the year, the defeat had put the brakes on the celebration... but it was a blessing in disguise as .... i could trully see the actual state of the team fragile mentality of the players... they had the abilities but not the mental strength to push through till the end... i vow to try and rally the guys up and be ready for the next match...

Done at last!!

2008-11-10T16:33:00.002+08:00

Finally a rest period for me.... no more projects .... hmmm planning to take leave and go for a holiday... perhaps at current state financial state i should go to my grandma's place in Malaysia to relax and rest... the slower pace of life there will help me unwind....

Don't dwell on what have been done but instead look into what have to be done...

Everything starts with a thought.....

After exactly 1 year later....

2008-10-21T11:49:00.002+08:00

Hey.. I'm Back .... i can't believe i've been gone for a long time.... hmmm let me see... latest update... I am now an engineer in my company, been together with my gf for 3 years (glad its finally all's well)... my soccer team is progressing as planned, we will be taking part in more official tournaments... and lastly i've got my own car :) .... hihihihi... yes i got my license hahaha after delaying for so long i've finally did it... 1 month after i pass, i bought myself a car... with the help of my friend who is a car dealer... i'll post the pictures soon if i got time.. its time i update this blog anyway... need some dusting... thats all for now... got work to do... continue later....

Wow what was that !!

2007-10-25T20:04:00.000+08:00

oh my god !!! i can't believe it... it is the first time i can't finish my work...nooooooo my reputation is gone.... darnit... no choice but i have to come early tomorrow.... ok thats all for today...

Something got to give.....

2007-10-24T20:07:00.000+08:00

Well another good day at work... but i have this feeling that sooner or later the company will need to release its employees... A lot of projects have been taken over by the competitors... anyway ...my gf has started to do stupid stuff... i really do not know what to do now... getting stressed out for nothing... and when i scold for doing those things she just ignore... sigh.... i do not know what else to do... for now its best i just keep quiet since whatever i do i'm always wrong.... i think thats all for today.. mental block

A Good Day Turn Bad

2007-10-24T00:12:00.000+08:00

hi blog!..... so far it has been a bad week for me.... let me tell you what happen... on monday morning i've finally able to have breakfast again with my friends at work after all this months. Anyway i'm back to working in office hour and being promoted to engineer level... anyway back to the story while eating breakfast i saw *her walking towards the stall to get her breakfast too. Our eyes met but its no longer the look which says hi! but rather more to saying i hope he doesn't see me... so sad... we used to be so close... we grew apart ever since my confession to her of my true feelings towards her after all these years... it all blew up after she keep asking advice from me regarding her troublesome bf and having feelings for another guy... it just blew up in my head... its my fault for having feelings for her when i already know it was not possible as i am not her type of guy... even before the confession i already knew her answer its just that i need to get it of my chest... but foolish of me to think that we will still be able to stay as friends... *sad*.... well anyway... the good thing about it is that i was able to give my gf my full attention after that... our relationship improves and i finally felt the warm of love which was absent before in the relationship... well lets get back to topic... today, i've just confirm a meeting date with a recording label for my band.... Yay!! after all this years of playing around trying to make it. promises after promises were broken. Now it actually happen... meeting with the label will be on 15 Nov .... it will decide our fate... whether we make or break.... so i decide to tell this good news to my gf .... but ... somehow it didn't go well ... she basically does not want me to commit ... but how can i say no to my dream??? you can only receive this type of opportunity once in a lifetime... this time i did my own homework on the company ... they are run by respectable people who have been in the industry for a very long time ... they are in contact with a number of already established artists ... hopefully we can learn from them even if we don't make it .... the lesson learnt can be used to guide other bands ... maybe start my own studio ... :) ... hmmm i've written a lot today ... well to be continued .... now tired .... bubbye

2yrs of work

2007-08-30T01:44:00.000+08:00

wow i can't believe it.... its been 2 years since i started work in the company.. hmmm birhtday coming soon... yikes.... time really do fly past fast... today is a much better day after a very busy couple of months.... next week another reshuffle again but at least this time bigger team to rotate and on 2 shifts. Slightly easier to manage.... hmmm its been a long time since i wrote sketchez of words...maybe it time i start again........ anyway.....Antonio Puerta may you rest in peace... the football world has lost one of their brightest young talent....

fragile life.... never easy to lose .... it is never fair.... could it be avoided? ..... we will never know...

Recommendation for Arsenal

2007-08-29T05:24:00.000+08:00

Its been just a couple of weeks pass after the EPL had started... I must admit as an Arsenal fan...I am worried... Not because that Henry left... but its the Keeper and centre back... As for Lehmann he is getting old and starting to show the signs which in the past David Seaman suffered before he retired. Maybe its time for a new young keeper to step up. As for centre back lets face it... arsenal don't really have enough cover.. the best cover they had already out on loan to Birmingham... they better find one soon... now is still early in the season most mistakes are able to get away easily but not when the season be in full swing... on the topic of beefing up they should consider an old fashion centre forwrd who will finish off all their hard earn chances... by the way thats what i felt .. any of you guys got any opinion?

What to Say!

2007-08-29T04:51:00.000+08:00

hello blog people... its me again after a long absent... anyway what the hell i'm doing still awake this late??? its freaking 5am and i'm still at work??? what to do... the past few weeks have very busy. Trying to reorganise the team at work... With so many reshuffling and complaints to handle... its taking a toll on me... Lucky still got a lot of leave to left... aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....
lets talk about other things than work ... hehehe... My band now have a slight change of line up... With Sid leaving us due to personal commitments in comes my younger brother to replace... but for now he'll be just jamming with us first before playing in gigs together... anyway this coming weekend on Saturday we will be playing at Kaki 5 Cafe alongside more established musicians... it will be our first time rubbing shoulders with 19 other established musicians other that the usual 2 or 3 other bands. Thou i'm no longer star struck like i used to but i'm still humble by their achievement. Karnival is finally start making people notice. All the hard work put which we all had nearly gave up initially... Its only when we had our first real fans we realise that we do have impact on someone's life. So we pick up the pieces and start rebuilding. Only time will tell again if we will succeed.... if u guys had followed my earlier blogs, all of you must have known that i have a football club rite :)... well a couple of month ago we had no choice but to close down the club due to bankcruptcy... but a couple weeks ago, a combination of passion and strong urge to play football again we got back together and reorganise ourselves to bring the club back from ashes. And so NHFC was revived. We had 3 lost and 1 win so far. The only diff now we were only in it for the passion of the game no longer the drive to make it as our career.. after nearly 8 month absent from football we were all rusty... but still must admit i was surprise we still have some of our delightful touches which made the club one of the most feared in Singapore in the amature scene. Still remember the days which the club manage to beat one of the Professional club reserve team in Singapore so convincingly till some of our players were taken by the club and now still playing professionally. Good for them... as for us now ... Enjoy!!!... well i think that should be enough for today... its already been a long entry... so ciaoz everyone!!

Moment Getting Closer!

2006-05-18T09:27:00.000+08:00

Hi Blog readers, surfers, browsers.... its been a long time since my last update... how have you all been anyways... i've been around here there .... no time to write my blog... actually got lots of things to write down but just don't how to write them anyway ... i'll try to update you guys what's been happening...
first thing first... i'm usually complaining about relationship well now i'm already 7 month with my honey... not bad after the previous disappointments... well hope i don't screw it up again this time...
Next will be about m soccer team hahah its been a wonderful year for the newly formed team.... this time round we are able to score unlike last year where we are always struggling... this year got more results go our way ... moral is high... finally we got our jerseys.... sponsored by me that is ...hihihi...We will be taking part in our first tournament due to start late june... hopefully this time round lets bring back some silverwares...
Lastly... My beloved band... a couple of new songs are just being written... our mini album have been finalised only left the mass production stage... not really sure how to proceed with it yet thou... anyway this year ... we only had one show so far which was on the 21 Jan ... the next one will be this 20th may... and a big gig for us is also coming soon which is believe ir or not the Singapore Street Festival... never thought we would actually at such a big event .. hope we'll do our best... anyway guys and gals who wish to know more about the band can visit out website www.freewebs.com/karnivalrock or www.myspace.com/karnivalrock or listen to us at www.purevolume.com./karnival .... be sure to leave us some comments if you wish to...
Well thats all for today's issue of blog till the next time ... happy blogging people!... weeeeee!!!

Hello 2006!!

2006-01-02T08:33:00.000+08:00

It is a great beginning for my 2006... had 1st soccer match of the year... we were expected to lose as they were the finalist of one of the amature soccer tournaments in singapore. They were a team from DHL .. yes the company... we didn'texpect to even got a draw as our previous 2 games we lost resoundingly 4-0 the scoreline.. but this time by the 60th minute we are already leading 4-0 before drop our gears down and finish the game 5-3... and i scored the 3rd goal... weee.. dedicated to my honey..it was a curling shot just from outside the box.. it fooled the goalkeeper completely... everyone thought it was going out but instead it curled in just beside the post... what makes the victory even sweet was that the team was headed by an ex singapore international player Effendy Sabtu... not a great player but still an international... after the game i just got home and sleep the whole afternoon hihihi after waking up spend time awhile with my honey then had an early night hihihi not much of an event but just the way i like it... hihihi... hmm 1 jan 2006 ... 1st goal... 1st match... hmm well lets see how's work gonna be tomorrow.. by the way to all blog people sorry i have not updated for so long... i wanted to update but just got no idea what to write..hihihi well till another day...ciaoz..

Think

2005-11-03T06:35:00.000+08:00

Joy of lifeSweetness in life
Tragedy of lifePain in life
Lesson of lifeFrustrations of life
War in lifeSuffering of life
And much more
Things in life always happens when u least expect
That’s what makes living a joy and a pain …
Curiosity kills a cat they say… but it could be fatal to humans tooKilling 2 birds with one stone may not be always a good thing
All these negativity is not good for anyone as it’s a walking time bomb
Like the Chinese believe of the good and evil, the ying and yang
Negativity must be balance by positives
Too much positives is also bad, a potential not time bomb but an uncoveredmanhole.
That’s why the world won’t be rid of villains, terrorists, rapists,murderers, con artists and more…
Can you imagine a world without them? ...
Wouldn’t it be weird??
The only place I could think off to have that place is heaven
As by then no one will actually have the need to be that way
Whatever one wish for could be done
Hey all you single guys out there not to worry
You will get angels to be your partners in heaven.
Well that’s all I’ve got to say for today entry
Weird never I have so philosophical as today
Take care you blog people till another day

Selamat Hari Raya!! To all Muslims all over the World!

Thoughts...

2005-10-25T19:57:00.000+08:00

Red … orange… green…. Blue….black… white…. Phoenix… Fox…. Castle…. Wizards… dwarfs…elves Magic… adventure… tragedy… Love… lost… found Hate… pain… angry… Victim … hero… Villain … secured… safety… Fantasy… reality… water runs dry… Problem… solve… Miracle… hard to believe… lie… Truth… why? How? What? When? Easy… hard… tough… Condemned … joke… bullied Try… opportunist… uncertain… Forgive and forget… End of time… Never… Stop… Go… hold… Hurt… cured… remedy… Potion… poison… antidote… venom Natural… fake… true… Sand… sea… beach... wind… Honey … sweet… Hot… spicy … chili Sour… plum… Stumped… blank… Willing… forced… Errors… Bugs… defects… Fresh… spoilt …. Tears… Smile… Laughter… It must end… Heart is no longer at its place… It had long moved on… Days… hours… minutes… seconds What should I do? What’s the right thing to do? Guilty?!… Playing on dangerous water… Easier said than done…

Photograph

2005-10-22T06:29:00.000+08:00

Look at this photograph
Every time I do it makes me laugh
This is where I grew up
This is where I went to school
Most of the time had better things to do
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
Remember the old arcade
Blew every dollar that we ever made
We used to listen to the radio
And sing along with every song we’d know
We said someday we’d find out how it feels
To sing to more than just the steering wheel

How true all these words are.....

Waaaaaaa....

2005-10-16T06:20:00.000+08:00

Soooo de very long never update the blog... how you all bloggies doing? Got miss me or not? Its been 2 month never update ish ish.. well what to do ... busy settling down with a new job.. hihihi yup.. finally i'm employed haha.. its ok.. just trying to organize my time so that i can still do the other things i have always done. The soccer team Season have ended... my aim for the team to avoid the bottomless pit is done... Now rebuilding time for the team and also some soul searching for certain people in the team... As for the band its doing well but not great... got some issues which need to be sorted out internally... hmm just one more aspect to cover... love life... haha as per usual if you have been a regular.. just like you all have guessed it.. its another failure.. well lets just pray that the next one won't be... if not i think i'll die single hahhah... maybe you guys or gals got anyone to intro to me? ... or maybe the gals wish to get to know me?? hahah just kidding ar.. but if u wanna, be my guess.. the door is open :P..... hmm what else to babble... Maybe some of you may be thinking why not the girls at my place?? well there are a number of cute girls.. hmmm??? what do you guys think?? nevermind... lets just leave it as a question in the mind... more interesting rite ?? hihihi... k guys till another day .. may my adventures continue..
P.S by the way if the next time i don't update my blog most prob i'm just not in the mood or too busy or lastly... died??? .... let's leave the last equation out for now... with god's permission it not the time yet... :) .... mAy GoD Be WiTh You!

Sigh....

2005-08-10T17:14:00.000+08:00

hello everybody.. its been awhile since my last entry.. well here's the drift... my band just finish doing the recording now the raw copy is in the process of mixing and later on mastering.. so it should be done in a couple of week to come... so i guess the EP will be done by September.. the official release date we have not decided yet.. anyway..no only that now i'm fully in charge of my soccer team... every decision will go to me as in i will have the final say... cool eh.. well all thats are well but other than that not too good ic.... can't really find a job to suite my schedule .. funny there's a lot of job available but the ones that i can get are the ones i want to avoid ... what is it u may ask... its dealing with insurance.. as an associate or financial adviser.. its just not my type of job i wanna do...i don't feel good to tell or ask people to buy or get involve in things they are reluctant to be involve with and this type of jobs usually have this type of situations and i really don't like it.. hopefully i could get other type of jobs like in the technical line , management or admin its still ok by me.. but not insurance... if in the first place i would avoid such person why in the world i wanna be them it doesn't make sense rite? what u guys think? anyway on with other things.. hmm my daily lifestyle now basically spending time with my younger brothers which i seldom before finishing my NS.. they're happy that i'm around they like to ask a lot of things and i like the feeling i could explain to them or share experiences with them.. hahah sounds like i could be a teacher.. but then again my academics are not good enough to qualify.. haha besides i've tried tutoring before and i can't handle hahaha.. pressure from the parents.. and that is only tutoring have not yet teaching a whole class i think i'll resign on the first day hahah! but saying all this i love kids and love spending time with them hmm maybe i should consider working with pre school students ?? just a thought... well today another boring day so thats why i decided that its time for me to add some thoughts of mine of late.. let it all out of my mind and not let it camp in my brain and memory wasting space only :P... oh i usually talk about my love life rite ... hahaha well up to date i'm still single.. but this time i got no drive to look for one yet.. still trying to get my life in order first... but if i were to meet someone, i would not let the chance pass ... at least i'll have someone other than my family and friends to share problems with... maybe even love .. ;) ... i think i should talk about my soccer team now... well i've took over as team manager for 3 weeks now... 1 win 2 loss.. not so good .. but the team is at least have improve in performance and commitment.. and new development has taken place ... manage to get new players to join the team.... much more pleasant team atmosphere .. more dicipline being enforced... now all i need is to translate all that good work to results on matchday... we really need to win the last few matches to go up on the league table so far i've only manage to hold on the mid table placing i wish to get the team to top half of the table.. 7 matches to go... lets just wait and see .. maybe we'll start to get our win this sunday? .. who knows... as there nothing left to lose only gain .. and i hope gain shall we... till another time bloggies... take care!!

EP still goes on!!

2005-07-19T20:12:00.000+08:00

Well well well ... looks like we are about to make our decision soon .. all left now to finalise our decision is the contract itself... if we like it.. we'll give it a go go go sign... hmm can't wait to go into the studio to record our EP or mini album... it is scheduled on the 26 , 29 and the 31st of july... hopefully if everything goes well all the songs will be done on the 31st itself... the rest of the production can be done a bit later.. 5 songs will be recorded... Damai, Terbang Melayang , Dampinglah aku and 2 english songs... She's the girl and My Remedy.. all songs are of our own composition... hihi i'm so excited .. yahooooo!!! and not only that we may also have a gig coming our way this august or september... so look out for that.. the details i will post again when i have the info.. by the way those who are interested to have a Copy of our EP just contact me.. till another time take care people! cheers!!

To Be Or Not To Be

2005-07-15T12:07:00.000+08:00

well well well finally i have something interesting for me to write and for u guys to commend on.. just yesterday my band just got our wildest dream come true... a recording label offer us to sign with them... instantly we were delighted but then it became a headache as we realised that our lifes won't be the same should we say if we sign on.. a lot of things we have to consider.. our family and friends.. future... financial security.. etc... but then there is also the saying where by the failures fail to grab the opportunity when it comes and those who succeed is the ones who grab the opportunity when it comes... but then again.. which one is the opportunity?? maybe u guys out there can give ur views in this?? sigh... we didn't really think that these day will come.. it did not occur to us that its possible... to us we are so new to the industry never thought that these things comes so fast... hmm is it too good to be true? or is this the break through we needed??

Sigh.......

2005-07-14T11:22:00.000+08:00

ORD beconing..... what to do .. no jobs... no money... no life... only whats left is my family, my band and my soccer team to cheer me up... the matter of the heart is so far a lost cause... sigh...

Mula terdengar suara
Latar yang cukup berbeza
Dosa menghitung janji
Kata daya ku menyepi

Indah permata di mimpi
Rupanya kacanye berduri
Andainya harus ku dihina
Kan ku trima damainya

hmm well not much to say for now.. just the ache of loneliness beconds the heart...
Cheers!

Almost

2005-06-29T13:35:00.000+08:00

Shadows bleeding through the light,
Where the love once shined so bright,
Came without a reason.
Don't let go on us tonight,
Love's not always black and white,
Why haven't I always loved you?
And when I need you
You're almost here
And I know thats,
Not enough.
And when I'm with you,
I'm close to tears,
'Cos you're only almost here.

¿Parece que soy incapaz de caer en el amor otra vez, parezco aguanto todavía, pero para qué? o quién? (Spainish)
Il semble que je suis incapable de tomber dans l'amour encore, il semble comme je suis calme tenant sur, mais pour que ? ou qui ? (French)
it seems that i am unable to fall in love again, it seems like i am still holding on, but for what ? or whom? (English)

p.s to a dear friend, i'm sorry for what i've done, i shall give u ur space if u need me, just give me a buzz.. btw... w-a-b-b-i-t misses u very much ;)

Hello Everyone...

2005-06-17T18:32:00.000+08:00

Hie .. you all must be wondering why in the world i put up those 2 post earlier... well here's a clue thats both posts best describe my Mood Of late.. hihihi ;) .. Enjoy..

Helena

2005-06-17T18:31:00.000+08:00

Long ago
Just like the hearse, you die to get in again
We are so far from you
Burning on, just like a match you strike te incinerate
The lives of everyone you know
And what’s the worst you take (worst you take)
From every heart you break (heart you break)
And like a blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well, I've been holding on tonight
[chorus]
What’s the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long not goodnight
Came a time
When every star falls
Brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold
And what’s the worst you take (worst you take)
From every heart you break (heart you break)
And like a blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well, I've been holding on tonight
[chorus]
What’s the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long not goodnight
Well, if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long not goodnight
Can you hear me
Are you near me
Can we pretend to leave and then
We’ll meet again, when both our cars collide
[chorus]
What’s the worst that I can say
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long not goodnight
Well, if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long not goodnight

I'm Not Okay (I Promise)

2005-06-17T18:20:00.000+08:00

Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say
I never want to let you down or have you go
It's better off this way
For all the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
Remember when you broke your foot
From jumping out the second floor
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out
What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems
(I'm not okay)
I've told you time and time again
You sing the words but don't know what it means
To be a joke and look
Another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time
Take a good hard look
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out
Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you'd read me like a book
But the pages are all torn and frayed
I'm okay
I'm okay
I'm okay, now
(I'm okay, now)
But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay
(Trust me)
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
(Okay)

Silent Woes...

2005-06-14T03:36:00.000+08:00

Hi blog good morning... sigh.. can't believe i writing this at 330 in the morning... can't sleep i just slept for more then 12 hours... now feeling as fresh as ever... on top of that very hungry... anyway.. events of late have been monotonous... girls i've known b4 starting to ignore me.. sigh... bz or wat so ever i don't know.. must be that i'm just an irritating person.. make them feel congested... well its ok i'll go away... hmm well left less then 10 working shifts for me to complete my NS.. surprisingly i made a new close friend with someone unexpected at all.. used not to be able to get along but now we some how got used to it and now we are friends ... funny how this worlds go round... always the unexpected things will be the one that happens.. hmm now the crossroads of my life is getting closer and i'm still have not decided on what to do... work or study?? or even both.. ?? really can't make my decision... my dreams are still alive and kicking i guess it does have influence in why i have not decided on what i should to.. both decision have influence in the outcome of whether to pursue my dream.. By the way fara if u are reading this.. where have u been? ... hmm and zul if u happen to stumble upon this and reading it.. here's a punch in the face for you ... WHAM!.. thats for breaking her heart... enough about that... hmmm soccer i wonder what my coach have been doing .. have not heard from them for weeks i think maybe more... if u no longer interested... just tell us... we are happy to get other people to coach us .. it may not be the same or as highly qualified but at least they are willing to improve us with or without money... the team is more and more becoming one as a team when u both are NOT there... too many high class stars that they don't know that soccer is a team game not individuals.. call urself uefa licence coach shame on you that u can't even see that... :P .. bluek.. oh one more thing what i've heard lately is that ur team have been losing right? well we are seem to be doing much better.. in the mid table of the league.. hahhah see now who have the last laugh... well i've said a lot today.. time to leave it for another day.. take care mosier blog... :)

love lost...

2005-06-01T22:54:00.000+08:00

hmmm been so long since i wrote something... well here goes... i have been to a lot of movies which i never have before this period.. don't really know why but must go see movie... haha crazy me....the soccer seems to be doing quite well lately... and surprisingly without any proper coach around.. scored a goal for my police team... as for my band no gigs up yet but we got one new english song just composed... which is a new progress as our songs composed previously are malay songs.. thats about all i guess lately.. as for love life... haha its a joke... if not for my friends i'll be fucking lonely... no luck what so ever in love... it has always been eluding me and it still have even thou at times able to get hold of it, somehow it will slip away again.. looks like i need to put a new lock next time i caught it... well i think thats all for today bloghead.. till another time... bluekk !! :P

Woit Help!!

2005-05-24T20:54:00.000+08:00

Aarrgh... Boring nyer... i want to perform .. can someone make a gig or something?? restless sia.. oh guys when want to go studio record?

Two Steps Behind

2005-05-23T18:20:00.000+08:00

Walk away if you want to
It's ok, if you need to
You can run, but you can never hide
See my shadow come creeping up beside you

There's a magic running through your soul
But you can't have it all

Whatever you do
I'll be two steps behind you
Wherever you go
and I'll be there to remind you
that it only takes a minute of your precious time
to turn around and I'll be two steps behind

Take the time and think about it
Walk the line, you just can't fight it
Look around and see what you can find
Like a fire that's burning up inside me

Mungkin nanti

2005-05-19T11:15:00.000+08:00

Sahajaku berkata
Mungkin yang terakhir kalinya
Sudahlah lepaskan semua
Ku yakin inilah waktunya
Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi

Dan mungkin bila nanti
Kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku jangan kau coba
Tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang kutinggal mati
Seperti hari kemarin
Saat semua di sini

Dan bila hatimu termenung
Bangun dari mimpi-mimpimu
Membuka hatimu yang dulu
Cerita saat bersamaku
Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi

Tak usah kau tanyakan lagi
Simpan untukmu sendiri
Semua sesal yang kau cari
Semua rasa yang kau beri

Like Or Love?

2005-05-15T12:29:00.000+08:00

Difference between the one you like and the one you love...
n front of the person you like,
your heart beats faster
But in front of the person you love,
you get happy.
In front of the person you love,
winter seems like spring.
But in front of the person you like,
winter is just beautiful winter.
If you look into the eyes of the one you like,
you blush.
But if you look into the eyes of the one you love,
you smile.
In front of the person you like,
you can't say everything on your mind.
But in front of the person you love,
you can.
In front of the person you like,
you tend to get shy.
But in front of the person you love,
you can show your own self.
You can't look straight into the eyes of the one you like.
But you can always smile and stare into the eyes of the one you love.
When the one you like is crying,
you end up comforting.
but when the one you love is crying,
you cry with them.
The feeling of like starts from the ear.
But the feeling of love starts from the eye.
So if you stop liking a person you used to like,
all you need to do is cover your ears.
But if you try to close your eyes,
love turns into a drop of tear and remains in your heart forever

Yikes...it was soo Hot ...

2005-05-04T19:16:00.000+08:00

Elo blog people... sorry for the late update... been busy these few days... anyway... the gig last saturday was hot... literally hot... i was sweating like crazy.... the air con is just not strong enough i guess... this time round there are more people dancing to our music which was very satisfying... sigh... too bad no more upcoming gigs now.. had so much fun performing that i can't wait o perform again... hmm well the day after the there was soccer.. it was a good match if the opponent would just play soccer instead of boxing.. they tried to intimidate me hahaha i was not even scared... :p stupid fools... he hit my head elbw my face still i did not back off.. i was not one bit afraid... in fact i wa furious.. a volcanoawaiting to erupt.. luckily.. it didn't it cooled off after i kept following him tyring to shake he's hand on purpose just to irritate him.. finally he came up to me and gave me the middle which i gladly grab his finger and twisted it...hihihi.... just a little token to show i ain't afraid of a gangster .. what he doesn't know is that i deal with these people every working day... hahah... i was actually waiting for him to wack me from behind after i twisted he's finger but hahah guess what i never saw him after that at all ... hahaha stupid fella... anyway the next day it was back to work... get to slack a bit as i got to do a relaxed post for once.. and finally yesterday work was very busy i even fell asleep writing the documents :P hihihi well luckily still able to finish on time ... well today as soon as i reach home i was so tired that i slept for the whole of the morning... and in the afternoon just lack around watching tv... well after this i shall be editing this blog a bit... hmm what shall i do... ok till next time bubbye bloggie

Wow a crazy day...

2005-04-26T22:09:00.000+08:00

yeowch.. what a day.. just when i taught that i could had the rest of the day to rest, my supervisors ask me to follow them on a project.. i thought what the heck i got no plans anyway.. but what i did not know was i was suppose to go JB to buy Crabs... hahah yup thats right.. crabs..well as soon as we finish the night shift earlier, we all got home as quickly as we can and waited for us to be picked up .. well off we go by 1030... we reached our destination the jetty in JB dunno the exact place... at around 1115... when we reached there the local folks told us that the crabs had been sent of to the market at pontian.. but then one of them make a call to thelorry driver and told him to wait for us at the school so we could buy the crabs.. without wasting anymore time we spee off looking for the school .. and we could not find it amazing ly hihihi.. so we went to search for the crabs at other outlets.. we even when to the jetty right in the middle of the sea to meet the fisherman there to ask if there is any crabs .. all said the same thing no more crabs.. all have been sent out.. so after furter consideration.. we deided t olook for the lorry and head for pontian... hahha i think that is the stupidest decision i've ever been involve with.. speeding off to pontian .. when we reach there.. we can't find a market ... but when we do find a fisherman market, amazingly no crabs again... ahah turn out to be a wild goose chase... had our lunch there.. ordered nasi goreng kampung it was very nice and spicy just like i like it... then after that we head off to do an errand for awhile as soon as it was done we head for onelast try at pasar larkin... on arrival, it was promising we saw crabs.. but then i was so expensive.. its cheaper in singapore so again no buy.. end up we bought some fruits and dried fishes as consolation... b4 heading home drop by the car wash then the petrol kiosk then finally homeward bound... what a day... so tiring it was... i think i would definately sleep soundly later... but b4 that must eat first its getting hungry after writing this tale.. klah i've sad enough.. cya again soon to next episode of my life...hihihih bye bloggie

Wow What A Night!...

2005-04-25T16:13:00.000+08:00

Yahoo.. finally , my band debut performance... it was cool.. it was very encouraging when u see the audience approval of the band performance.. we did well.. we got a few thumbs up from the other more established bands there.. at the same time it was such a relief .. finally the duck has been broken... it has been getting old .. i was blushing when a cute girl came smiling at me... ahuks.. should have ask for her number thou .. haha... yes its true your dracoola friend here got melted hahaha thats a first for me i guess... i shall upload a few picturess from the gig maybe later ... a bit busy editing the video footage to make into vcd.. i can't wait for the next gig , its going to be on the 30th of april... i'll definately gonna take pictures there... its kinda wasted i did not bring my digi cam for yesterday's gig.. shall not make that mistake again.. wow its amazing that i can last the whole of yesterday till wee early ours in the morning just now.. imagine, morning i've had a soccer match witch started at 1030 and ended around 1230, it was a tought match it was with the league leaders we did well we n level actually until a lapse in concentration let to the eventual goal was the winner for the league leaders too bad i guess.. as soon as after that i went straight home get ready and off i go to meet the rest of the band at my drummer's place, had our lunch and off we got to gig, which is at a pub called 57 chevy by then we reached there around 315 and we thought we are late but we are actually early the first band to arrive even hihihi... then we had our sound checks, and then waited for the gig to start. altogther there are 8 band , we're the fourth slot..the stage was small so i stand out of the stage hihihi... was nervous at first but as soon the crowd started to join us nervous was replace by axhiliration... hihihi .. sigh but it was tiring .. i wonder how those othe established band able to perform for hours on stage..hmmm .. well i have said enough for today.. see u again mr blog...

Moment of Madness...

2005-04-15T16:56:00.000+08:00

Wow what a night
it was one weird night
sneek into the hospital after visiting hours
to visit a friend in need
went into a club, weird..
bourbon coke, sprite vodka & coke rum
what was that about.. was that me?
life has been a roller coster ride..
hmm its reach a state of monotonousity
hopefully more exciting things coming up in the coming days
as the horoscope says
its my turn to have good thing coming my way
sigh.. if only it is true..
the thought of performing at gigs are on my mind
24th and 30th must be the day..
Well lets get geared up and blow them away

Help ....

2005-03-29T19:36:00.000+08:00

I'm confused... i'm just confused lately... hmmm must learnt to how to realx myself not to takes things all in one go

Yawn..

2005-03-26T08:35:00.000+08:00

gd morning... it was a tiring day yesterday.. fell asleep early last night.. came back from work , sleep for awhile, wake up go to the mosque, then back home . Shortly after went out have a haircut, then straight to jurong to meet her then we're off to City Hall. Had early dinner at Pizza Hut, its a first for me then we're off to the movies . It was a hilarious movie i couldn't help but laugh out loud ... hihihi .... well soon after the move is over , she need to be back home as she got a curfew, sent her back to her grandma's place and i slowly make my way back home. Suppose to go meet up with the rest of my family for camping at east coast but i guess i was too tired.. reach home, watch tv for awhile, i fell asleep .... hmm u ask who is she? .. well its for me to know and u find out on ur own ;) .. byess...

I'm back

2005-03-24T16:06:00.000+08:00

Dear Blog, what's up dude... how have u been doing... me fine .. better actually... can't wait for my band upcoming gig on 30 of april.. hmm i think thats the date :P... the soccer league just started recently.. and i just scored my first goal of the season.. hahaha..that also just after i put the ball into my own net :P ... mistake which i redeemed after... finishing my national service soon... can't wait to challenge myself in the open cruel world... hahah ... watch out for menacing me.. hmm or maybe i should study again? ... nah .. i don't think so... i've wasted to much tme on studying already need to reach for my goal now... Be successful in Soccer (Player or Coach) , Have my Own family , and earn big bucks :P... quite far fetch but i still think its still within reach its not impossible.. maybe if i'm good enough able to go work overseas..in europe maybe :P